despite the fact that lately, things have seemed helpless at times, and how life has decided to take my plans and remind me how, well, fungible they are.

i am grateful that i am able to provide my mother with support. that i have the flexibility to be with her and not be tied to a geographic location, or to a relationship that would be affected negatively by me being here with her. i am grateful i am able to help her get back on track with her diet and health issues. it must be difficult trying to navigate all that when you cannot get out to buy your own food or drive yourself to a doctor’s appointment. i am not sure how i would handle all that she has so far.

yes, i get overwhelmed easily, but i need to persist now, not for me. no, not for me, but so that her time here is at least better than it would have been if she was alone.