There is only one person who has kept in touch with me from those first years as a professional software developer. Everyone else decided I was too annoying, arrogant, or simply not worth the effort. I suppose many of those things were true. I was a different person then. Like everyone else, life has changed…

On this day, he had found no way out again. His heart beat faster at the thought of the balcony door closed, sealed, shut. He knew there was another way out. One he always knew waited for him and would release the pain, ensure peace for him, in nothingness. On this day, he may find…

Me avergüenzo de mi mente; Frágil organo emocional, Culpando al Corazon por tus Incorregibles sentimientos. Sabiendo que eres sola, Entre el fluido sanguíneo Persistente, quien conoce Las fronteras de la realidad, La cual te gusta crear entre suspiros. Soy entonces un producto De la imaginación de mi mente; Una sonrisa sin razón, Un escondite de…

Azul – azul cielo, cielo, cielo y mar. Canto, canto del suelo, suelo y cielo, Cielo y mar, entre el mar y el cielo, Suelo del mar, mar del cielo, azul. Escucha el cielo, suelo de voz, Voz del mar, entre el azul del suelo Y el ardor del mar suele entre sueños. Luna entre…

That the promises i made were selfish. That the love i so carelessly gave was never mine. That i was blindly following that which i believed rejected. That the treasure was always in that which i abandoned.

I never expected to retire. I honestly expected to keep working until one day I leaned over my desk and never woke up. Another option was suicide. It never seemed like a strange option to me. Given what I had seen retirement do to my father, it was anything but a desirable or welcome state…

The dates he wrote on the clear pages of his notebook meant nothing. He wasn't sure what day it was, but it felt good to write something down; it gave him a point of reference, tho a moving one. How had he arrived here? He knew the answer; it was self-imposed, but he still searched…

The locks were double-validated today. It was made sure that there is no way out. Not at least through the usual doors. Last night, he found a way to the tower. The stars were singing out of tune. All at once, chattering for help or attention. He stood there, on the edge of the tower…

i first learned of this song while watching MASH reruns when I arrived in Los Angeles in 1981. the song is oddly soothing and calming, considering the introduction to a show about war. i did not learn its name until many years later. i was surprised to finally know the name of the song I…

we are simply a tool created by the universe to explore itself. good night